I often ask myself why did I have to meet you? We met in a strange way, in a strange place with a strange conversation. I had no idea you would have a huge impact on me. I met you several months ago, I was a bit lost and bored in my life and then you came along with your calming voice and sleepy eyes. We both like dogs and staying at home and jazz. We love old songs and films. We don't like texting from time to time and sending cheesy messages. We are so alike we could pass off as soul mates. My favorite moments were those when we will play sad songs while we were talking about our heartbreaks, our pains and all the things we've been through before we reach this point of life. It is not easy to talk about pain and sadness but with you, we are always in rhythm. You were there in my bad days and I was there in your raw state. I always wonder how could you make a really bad day turn into a best one. You help me cope up with sadness until you became the pain. We were like a really sad song with a really good melody. I know we tried with all the courage that's left from us. We took all the chances to try again and make it right but at some point or another it always gets messy and the same story will happen again until we ran out of chances until trying no longer works. I guess this is what happens when your emotional baggage is heavier than what you have for each other.

       Last night when I ask myself again why did I have to meet you, I got an answer. With you I learned to be patient about love. That there is good thing in waiting and being steady. Maybe I have to learn it from you so when the right one comes along I can love him patiently. We had bad days but those were paid off double by our good days. I remember the night you told me I am your favorite, I asked you what that means but you just smiled at me. I don't understand you sometimes but you are always honest and sincere. I know we finally reached our breaking point, our finish line, our last resort. I am going to a new year without you because we don't deserve each other anymore. I will always pray we will both end up happy, even if not together, but atleast happy. Because we deserve it.

P.S. You are also my favorite.

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